17 December 1994
Dear Sripad Bhakti Kanan Giri Maharaj,
Please accept my dandavat pranams in remembrance of our Divine Masters. I am very happy to receive your informative letter with your affectionate service donation.
Dealings with the devotees are actually very difficult, especially in this age of Kali. Actually we do not know clearly the mood of devotion of everybody and for that we shall try to see first ourselves. How much am I perfect, what is my duty, and in anyway not to loose our target- these three. Here I am always realizing myself and trying to proceed to our destiny with our real friends and so-called friends.
My dear Maharaj it is very hard in this age to harmonize with all the environment, but we have no other way. You are so affectionate and simple hearted. You are a clean Vaisnava and very straight, but this is the age of Kali. Everything is going in a jig-jag way with mundane ambition and false ego, but we cannot stop to proceed to our destination.
You know I have more than full regard and affection for Your Holiness. Then Maharaj, I can only say, “You are the man on the spot.’’ If you will make a considerate decision then I shall get some relief. You know how much Prabhu J.V. is enthusiastic to preach Krishna consciousness in Russia and you know how much I am enthusiastic to enter into the land of Russia for the preaching of Srila Guru Maharaj’s conception. Anyway, I want to give shape to that, but you can believe I never forget the nasty behavior of the ISKCON devotees in Dallas with Your Holiness.
I am initiating the persons on the recommendation of my affectionate friends like Your Holiness, but I know why I am giving and why you are recommending them. Also you can believe I know the meaning of disciple. You know, my whole life I am suffering, day and night for the service of Guru Maharaj, without hesitation. When I am seeing that in another person, how much I am sympathetic towards them- I cannot express that by language. Sometimes many words manifest themselves before me, like surrender, sacrifice, dedication, bonafide, devotion, and disciples. Finally, when seeing the appearance of Service then everything goes hazy in front of me. Only I can see at that time, the benedictine tree of divine aspiration. We are, no doubt, so insignificant and unqualified but our Gracious Masters are Divine. That is our only hope.
Dear Maharaj, you believe that I am respecting Your Holiness and your perfect realization of Krishna consciousness with my full heart. It is only my satisfaction and hopeful happiness that at least the mold of Your Holiness is not producing any alloyed devotion. Also, I can worship from so far like “sukha-siva-brahmadi-sammanditum,” that divine conception. When we are eager to distribute Mahaprabhu’s mercy, in a missionary way, in this mundane world, then we must tolerate many things. Sometimes we must also compromise with alloyed devotion, otherwise we cannot make a useful ornament with pure gold. I think you understand now what I want to say.
Srila Prabhupada Saraswati Thakur and Srila Prabhupada A. C. Bhaktivedhanta Swami tried to make their world-wide mission of Krishna consciousness. First they collected so much garbage along with gold from this mundane gold mine. Later we heard from Srila Swami Maharaj to Srila Guru Maharaj, “Maharaj, I have collected so many raw materials from the West, you please refine them and make them perfect for the service to Guru Maharaj.” Also I am trying as much as possible by me to do that.
In our life we are in one way so much hopeful, no doubt, to see the activities of our Divine Gurudevas, but when we will see the Scriptural realization about exclusive devotion then—I do not want to expose that hopeless matter.
By this letter if it will give you any nourishment I must feel myself so fortunate. Actually, I do not want to go into detail, but I must say that I am always with Your Holiness. You know very well that I am not breaking my promise in any way. What can I say?
It is my great pleasure to hear that this Bengali year I shall get your association in the time of Gaura-Purnima. Again my dandavats pranams to Your Holiness, and dandavat pranams and blessings to the devotees, as appropriate, there.
Swami B. S. Govinda
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